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I met someone. The day I returned to working in a restaurant, he was one of the first people that I met. He walked right up to me and...
Single in Oakland
Dec 10, 20195 min read
Rewriting the fairy tale
I was wondering how I would rewrite the story of H and I if I could. Would we have lived a happily ever after? Would I have been able to...
Single in Oakland
Sep 16, 20164 min read
I'm so fucking done.
I’m so ready to move on. I’m ready to work again, to have some consistency, to pay my bills, to meet someone that has their shit...
Single in Oakland
Sep 12, 20164 min read
And then he went in for his six day "meditation retreat", and I kissed my friend's ex
And just like that one of the most attractive women I know, is kissing me and flirting with me at my regular wine spot. She’s my friend’s...
Single in Oakland
Aug 29, 20164 min read
He gets out early, and doesn't tell me!
So you may have figured out that the "Meditation Retreat" was actually jail. A six day sentence because the system is fucked, and it's a...
Single in Oakland
Aug 2, 20162 min read
For a minute there, I lost myself.
Still no word. I’m wondering if he made it into work today. I slept most of the night thanks to a couple of Calms Forte, but woke up and...
Single in Oakland
Jul 25, 20163 min read
Sunday. Apparently I'm a "Fucking Skunk".
I have my iPhone on Do Not Disturb from 10pm to 7am everyday. The only chances of that breaking are when someone on your favorites list...
Single in Oakland
Jul 24, 20162 min read
Saturday
He couldn’t sleep, and then I couldn’t sleep. We ended up making love that morning. It felt so so so right. He almost fell asleep on me....
Single in Oakland
Jul 23, 20162 min read
Friday
He leaves for work, I spend the next seven hours pursuing networking leads and looking forward to the date at Cala. My best friend and I...
Single in Oakland
Jul 22, 20161 min read
Thursday
I woke up to no texts. I had a really busy business morning so I was distracted. I had to pick up something for a friend who lives in the...
Single in Oakland
Jul 21, 20162 min read
Ending it, sobbing uncontrollably, and an unsent letter
I went out to Era last night because H was staying with his parents. He has a required class that he takes on Tuesday evenings there. He...
Single in Oakland
Jul 20, 20166 min read
The definition of insanity
My friends have all said, “This is not what I want for you.” They have been so patient with me, and I’ve apologized to Kendal for having...
Single in Oakland
Jul 19, 20163 min read
A key to the house
Yesterday he got home a bit before I did. I’ve never given him a key to my house. The only one that I did that for was Mike, and I’m not...
Single in Oakland
Jul 16, 20163 min read
I need reassurance from you
I don't ask for much. I want you to hold me at night. Tell me that you love me before we fall asleep. Reassure me that I'm what you want,...
Single in Oakland
Jul 12, 20161 min read
We're great together
I've fallen in love with him again. And now I actually want to have his children. I want to make him a father. I want to make a life with...
Single in Oakland
Jul 10, 20161 min read
Why can't things be easy?
I don’t know what’s going on. I’m in a bad place emotionally. The job thing is starting to drive me nuts. All of the offers I’m getting...
Single in Oakland
Jul 6, 20163 min read
Living a nightmare with an addict
It's over. I'm devastated and feel like my heart has been ripped out. I'm betrayed and jaded. Saturday morning while he was in the shower...
Single in Oakland
Jul 3, 20162 min read
Unsent letter to H
You've changed. You exchanged one addiction got another, and became mean and rude. You lost basic manners. You're hiding something with...
Single in Oakland
Jun 27, 20161 min read
The Goldilocks of Tinder
All’s not well on the home front. I’m in love with someone, only the third person that I’ve told that I loved in a relationship as an...
Single in Oakland
Jun 16, 20163 min read
Something's not right
I'm wide awake. This is the second day that we haven't had sex. Something seems different about him. Like the attraction isn't there...
Single in Oakland
Jun 15, 20161 min read
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