We're great together

I've fallen in love with him again.

And now I actually want to have his children. I want to make him a father. I want to make a life with him.

We're actually great together when he's not busy sabotaging his life, and therefore ours. I don't know why I believe so intensely that we're meant to have this life together but I do. The way we work in the kitchen together (I actually let him and get excited for him to use my knife), at home we work well together, in the shower...god, I don't think I've showered with someone since my first serious adult boyfriend and enjoyed it.

My girlfriend that has been battling with an alcoholic ec fiance/business partner said something the other day along the lines of,"The alcoholics that are not able to go clean I feel immense sadness for, and those that are able to conquer it are some of the strongest people in the world."

I agree. I could tell how proud of himself he was when he was sober. I want him to get back to that.