Something's not right

I'm wide awake. This is the second day that we haven't had sex. Something seems different about him. Like the attraction isn't there anymore. He's back to laying on his back or away from me while he sleeps. He was weird while watching the game tonight. Really loud and kind of aggressive. I don't know what's up, but he keeps telling me I'm the one tripping, not him, when I ask. Which is making me feel crazy and insecure.

Again. I don't need this right now. I have to concentrate on the certification exam I'm taking on the 22nd. I need things to be easy with him. He is passed the fuck out. I keep hoping he'll wake up and see that I'm awake. I don't know why, I don't know what that would accomplish. I feel like I wouldn't even have sex with him if he did.

Last night at the game he whispered to me that he was sorry he didn't make love to me yesterday and would make it up to me tonight. The way he said it made me love him so much. And now, after getting high and in the hot tub he is passed the fuck out.

I was so depressed yesterday I couldn't get anything accomplished. This can't keep up.