I break my hand, exFriend Zone breaks my heart.

At this point I tell The Kid about everything, and ask him if I should call exFriend Zone out. Before I hear back exFriend Zone texts me something random in response to last night’s text, and I instantly respond, “Am I going to see you again?” He responds with, “What the…” And then he comes over for lunch the next day. We hug, talk for almost two hours, but not about anything important. I’m not good at it. That night my buddy comes over to spar with me, and ends up breaking my hand. While icing it he gives me his perspective and tells me I need to ask him where he and I stand. After he leaves I text exFriend Zone about what happened that night. We text back and forth, but he never actually expresses condolences or offers to help with anything, or to come see me.

There were several things that bummed me out that night. That my sparring buddy is an amazing person, but wants to fuck me, and I made it absolutely clear that I’m not going to let that happen. We’ve been great friends for a long time, and he’s way more valuable to me as a friend and as a thug, than we could ever match in bed. Going through this with exFriend Zone is probably the only good thing that’s coming out of this experience. Don’t cross lines that should not be crossed. Going to the hospital by myself sucked too. As independent as I am, I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to be with me, check in on me, spoon me and pet me and tell me everything is going to be alright. Kiss me on the top of my head, bring me pain pills and water. Shampoo my hair because I’ve only got one arm for a few weeks.

So the next day, my sparring buddy checks on me, as well as several friends. You know who doesn’t? exFriend Zone. You know what this means? He’s dead to me. Sucks. I would have loved to be friends with him, but at this point, I don’t have room for someone that doesn’t value me enough to check in after I spend an evening in the ER. Thanks for showing me your true colors buddy!

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